In my life before Christ, I practiced passionate obedience without
hesitation. I satisfied the desires of my heart, which included
committing adultery and smoking marijuana. In 47 years I had five
beautiful children, three miserable marriages, 10 years of physical,
mental, and emotional abuse, 10 years of sexual and mental abuse for my
three daughters, and 10 years of emotional distress for my two sons. At
the end of it all, I was empty, disillusioned, and sick of myself. I
needed something or someone to fill the hole in my gut. I even thought
going back to church might help.
Then my youngest daughter invited me
to go to church with her. There I found the key to living a satisfied
life – total surrender to Jesus Christ! He raised my head from the pit
of shame and blame that overwhelmed me. He forgave me my sins! He loved
me! I came without hesitation into His arms, passionately obedient to
His call for salvation. Three weeks later, I plunged passionately and
without hesitation into another marriage to an unbeliever. After two
weeks I saw how miserably I had failed God. I also heard Christ saying
that I’d have to live with this mistake. Yet in His love, He did not
desert me. He has helped me through every moment, through all the good
and the difficult days. At times He comforts. Other times He changes my
husband’s heart and actions. He keeps me going.
God even gave me the gift of a
passion for teaching His Word. Yet I didn’t know exactly what to do with
this passion. And what about the weight I had gained and my credit
overload? My life was out of control in many ways. “Help me!” was my
frequent prayer. Then another daughter invited me to attend the Inspire!
Women conference with her. I agreed because I would get to hear my
favorite artist, Damaris Carbaugh, sing in person! I came, not looking
for specific answers but open to God’s leading. In the conference folder
was an application for Gideon 300. I felt a nudge. “Is that You, Lord?”
I wondered. Without hesitation, yet not knowing exactly why, I filled it
out. ”OK Lord, if You want something to come of this, so be it.” That
application meant I had to attend the “Developing the Whole Woman”
course taught by Anita Carman. In one of my homework assignments, I
spoke of my dissatisfaction with my weight. Inspire! Women made it
possible for me to attend First Place, a weight management program at
First Baptist Church. Since April 2004 I have lost 30 pounds and two
dress sizes!! I also explored my educational options through the College
of Biblical Studies Teaching Track. But I never even thought about doing
anything immediately because I didn’t want my husband to resent the time
it would take away from our time together. Then I received a CBS
scholarship to attend Bible Study Methods, one of the courses in the
teaching track! My heart jumped! Was God saying to do this now? Would my
husband get mad if I started classes now? I accepted the scholarship and
waited for God to move. He did - my husband supported me! In April 2005
I completed the Teaching Track thanks to scholarship assistance from
Today my life is completely changed!
My outlook is positive. God’s vision for me is still not perfectly
clear. And that’s OK. For today I can pray wholeheartedly as did Mary,
the mother of Jesus: “Behold, O Lord, Your maidservant. May it be unto
me as You have said.”
Passionate obedience? Living life without hesitation?
YES! I can now move forward with the Lord passionately and without
hesitation! God has rekindled my passion for Him. He has shown me that
He will provide what I need if I will just continue to trust Him and
move when He says move – without hesitation!
I call each of
you to answer the call of the Lord on your lives! Love Him
passionately enough to do what He births in your heart without
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On November 7, 2004 God watered a seed He had planted not long before.
That is the day that God whispered in my ear to go forward with the
request I had been given to continue an encouragement and prayer
ministry via e-mail.
Not long before this I had been thinking about a full-time ministry – an
e-mail ministry to people who are feeling all alone in their situation,
like I did when I was abused and during my four marriages. God even gave
me a name for this ministry – You Are Not Alone. But at that time I had
no audience base and no idea about how to proceed.
On November 7, 2004 God delivered the audience base and the idea of how
to proceed! During the prelude to the 2004 Inspire Women Conference, I
was a Quadrant Leader for the Southwest Houston Ambassadors. The
Ambassadors are women who spread the word about the conference to other
women throughout Houston. The Quadrant Leaders are women who spread
encouragement and prayer to the Ambassadors through weekly messages, and
act as liaisons with Inspire’s staff and the Ambassadors. So each week I
sent out an encouragement and prayer e-mail designed to target specific
aspects of the conference preparation and to encourage the women to
believe in the power of God to make the 2004 Conference a success for
When the conference opened, I saw many of the ladies I had been
e-mailing and several asked me not to stop my e-mails. They said they
truly enjoyed reading them, and were uplifted by the messages.
The seed God had planted stirred in my mind and I began to envision the
ministry I had only hoped would be realized! To be sure this was God’s
plan for me, I asked all the Ambassadors to let me know if they were
interested in receiving weekly e-mails from me. If they weren’t
interested, I offered to remove their name from the mailing list. Not
all replied but those that did reply gave me a resounding “YES!” Only
two or three asked to be removed from the list.
And so began You Are Not Alone
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Gilda Marie Taylor surrendered her heart and life to the Lord Jesus
Christ in May 1995. She served faithfully in Houston Church under Pastor
Phil Arms and First Lady Suzanne Arms from that time to 2004 in various
capacities: coordination of an adult Sunday School support ministry;
coordination of the Children’s Nursery for
3 year –olds; substitute Sunday School teacher for one year; Sunday
School women’s Bible Study Teacher – 1 year; coordinate a
Hospital/Special Needs Ministry. In April 2004 Mrs. Taylor joined West
Oaks Fellowship under Pastor Frank Estes and First Lady Brenda Estes.
Since that time she has led several ladies' retreats and taught ladies'
bible studies. On Sunday,
April 29, 2007 Mrs. Taylor was licensed as a minister through West Oaks
Fellowship, sanctioned by Pastor Frank Estes and the Church Elders.
She wrote and taught a quarterly workshop on Communication Skills for
Family Outreach from 1995-2002 and then taught this workshop at Star of
Hope to all staff in February 2003. She has been a retreat leader and
conference speaker at several local churches, and has led a First Place
Christian weight management class as part of YANA
Mrs. Taylor graduated from Nazareth College in Rochester, New York in
1969 with a Bachelor of Arts degree in Sociology. In December 1986 she
received a Master of Education degree in Guidance and Counseling. She
completed the Teacher Training Track at College of Biblical Studies in